This was my second Christmas without my daughter Lucy.
And it hurts.
It hurts a lot.
And it wasn't any easier than the first Christmas!
In fact I kind of feel like this one was even worse.
P.S. I know there are a lot of other losses that make Christmas hurt.
The 10th of Augustus of 2022 will be forever etched in my mind. Because that's the day I lost my daughter Lucy. She was 25. When you lose a child Wednesday the 10th of August 2022 started like any other day. I got up, I went for my daily run, I worked on my blogs...
No, that's not me. I'm not that mom. I'm not that mom who lost a child I'm not that mom who has lost a child. It can't be me, because it's one of my biggest nightmares. And you shouldn't worry about that kind of thing because it usually doesn't happen. I'm not her. But I...
My mind know you're no longer here. But my heart still expects to see you walk up our garden path. My heart is waiting for you And I'm waiting for you with open arms. Ready to hug you. Ready to welcome you. But then you don't come. Time and again. And it hurts.
On January the 18th my daughter Lucy would have turned 26. How do you celebrate the birthday of someone who is no longer walking this earth? Who will be 25 forever? I find some comfort in Donna Ashworth's poem: 'Don't miss me more'. Don't miss me more by Donna Ashworth ‘Don’t miss me more than...
Grief is not a simple process. For a while there, the 4 stages of Kübler-Ross provided a kind of road map. But even though they're better than nothing, it's become clear that the process of grief is not a linear process. Grief is not a linear process It's not like you can go: 'Okay, I've...
Last Thursday was my daughter Lucy's birthday. She died on August the tenth of 2022. Today, I've just had enough. Today, I don't feel like putting in effort. Today, I don't feel like shouldering the burden. Today, I don't feel like making the best of it. Today, I don't feel like pulling myself together. Today,...
